Alone but never lonely

I've always been a hermit. I LOVE staying home (especially by myself) and prefer it to almost any activity. I don't allow myself to fully embrace my inner hermit very often. As much as I like staying home, it's REALLY hard for me to say no to friends when I'm invited to hang out so I almost always go and I most definitely always have a good time :) I have fabulous friends but here lately it's been harder for me to be social. I want to be by myself more and more every day. I've found the only thing I don't really enjoy doing alone is going to church. No matter how many times I've done it, it's still very strange sitting in a pew all by my lonesome. I grew up going to church with family and friends and going to lunch with lots of people after. It's hard to now go alone, sit alone and later eat alone at whatever fast food restaurant tickles my fancy. Although it's slightly awkward, it's not uncomfortable enough for me to attend my parent's church. I'm nowhere near that desperate!

This past weekend I celebrated my first holiday by myself. It was slightly strange to not be with family for America's Birthday but it was nice going to watch fireworks alone. I got to do exactly what I wanted and couldn't have asked for anything more. Today I decided to go to the movies all by myself. I've been wanting to do it for a long time now and today was the day I finally bit the bullet! I must say, it was a completely enjoyable experience! I saw Eclipse (I LOVE my vampires. Team Edward all the way!!!) and it was not nearly as awkward as I thought it would be. It was actually quite relaxing. The one thing I have not yet mastered is dining alone in a restaurant. The closest I've gone to that one is eating at Chipotle a couple times a few years ago; I've never tried a real restaurant. I'm thinking I'm still not ready for that one but I'm learning that being alone is very peaceful. I probably sound like the most boring person ever for wanting to be by myself but I don't think it's easy for everyone to spend time alone and enjoy it. This is actually one thing about myself that I like! I don't need a lot of people around me to be happy. I am perfectly content just spending time with me and I think that's great :)